You were once a stranger.
You became so friendly, so familiar.
Easy, comfortable, natural. That’s what you were to me.
You turned into a love that was bound to last forever.
That ended the day you changed.
You were the warmest soul that I knew at the time…
Then one day things took a turn for the worse.
How did we get here? Here of all places…Where did we go so wrong? Loving you forever was all I wanted. Was that too much to ask for?
Ahhh but indeed it was. You left me at your darkest moment and you wouldn’t allow me to shine any light into your world.
What was once so familiar became a memory.
But my dear, they were memories that were so beautiful and bold and there are memories that destroy me… The way you destroyed me once you became a stranger.
You became a memory.
A distant memory as if I’d not known you for 2.5 chapters of our story.
You are a memory that will last a lifetime. Our story may be over but the memories will continue to shine on.
One day they won’t shine as bright. Those memories will always be there in a way you couldn’t be.
God said you no longer belong in my life. You no longer serve a purpose for me anymore. You’ve done what you came to do and you did what needed to be done. Thank you for teaching me what I needed to be taught. I now release you.
Because I deserve better. I will get better. I deserve someone who wants to stay without me having to beg. I deserve to be chosen everyday even when it gets hard to do so.
Appreciation, that’s what’s coming. That’s what I deserve. That’s what I will get. One day someone will be as obsessed with me as the way I was with you. It’ll feel right and it won’t feel one sided…
What was once so familiar became unfamiliar.
It was as if our love never existed… as if WE never existed…
Your love came and went but mine stayed… and it will continue to stay until I’m ready to let you go. You’ll always have a place in my heart, but one day it won’t take up so much room.
That’s the difference between you and I, I stayed and I would of always stayed. I would have done everything to keep you and fight for you. But you gave up. You let me go.
Let go… that’s a tough one
I know I have to let go to move on, I’m just not ready yet
The love I have for you will still render until it just doesn’t anymore…
What was once so comfortable became strange. You became strange.
Cold. You became cold… in a way I didn’t recognize you.
A stranger. Who I no longer knew.
It was as if we never met. You were so quick to release me as if I meant nothing to you. That hurt & it still hurts.
Thank you.
For being a lesson now learned. You came and went and showed your true colors.
Colors I wish I never would have had to see, but I did. And I thank you for showing me them in time and saving me a lifetime of heartache.
Now I will pick myself back up and heal. I will find who I am all over again and take everything you taught me and put it into my next relationship when the time is right. Because at the end of the day I can only count on myself.
From lovers and friends to…
Strangers.
Here’s to being strangers all over again.
That’s the end of our story. 2.5 chapters gone. Not all of it was a horror story, most of it was a romance novel, but the ending? It was the most horrific ending I ever had to read.
When two became strangers.
Goodbye forever,
Xoxo,
Joc