Overwhelmed is an understatement.

The interior walls build up beside me causing me to gasp for air. Trapped inside my own body, not able to make out the words.

I am overstimulated while trying to piece reality back together. This load feels heavy on my shoulders, and I don’t know how to carry it.

It’s overwhelming and consuming all at the same time. I scream internally trying to figure out how I can juggle it all at once.

Tears flow out from my eyes one by one. I cry alone so no one can see me or hear me. Being overwhelmed and overstimulated are things that I tend to deal with alone. For it is a pride thing to not have anyone see me struggle, because then I am seen as weak.

I for one am not weak, just lost in this crazy world trying to find a balance in this mess of a world that we live in. No guidance, just lonely, just lost.

Consumed by thoughts, overwhelmed by emotions, and overstimulated by reality.

Clawing at the insides of my brain…

Overwhelmed.

~J. R~