“Stuck” (9/23/17).  Stuck.The tables have finally turned, and I’m stuck.Paralyzed Trapped in my own mind. Afraid of my own thoughts.    Alone… I can’t stand being trapped in my own head. Fear, and anxiety take over.I’m at a loss for words- unable to speak, unable to move. I’m weak. Drained.Can’t help myself come out of this. I’m stuck in my own body, and I’ll never be able to get out. Fighting and running away from it with fear. It doesn’t end. It makes its way back to me— each time more powerful. Strangling me with its power to change me, and its power to over come me. I’m a new person now, but it’s not the person who I want to be.I’m invisible now, and robotic. I’m stuck, and I now abide by new rules that gives this demon life, and meaning. I am gone. No longer living. The me that used to exist is gone. The new me that exists is unhappy, lifeless, and unappalling. But soon, it’ll all be over…-J.R- 💘