I grew up watching my surroundings and soaking it all in. Realizing that it’s okay to be treated a certain way even though it isn’t. Negative attention is still attention right? Wrong. It’s not okay to be in toxic cycles and that’s something I’m learning to break. I don’t deserve to be treated the way I keep allowing people to treat me. Because of this, it’s led me to constantly self sabotage. I think that being mistreated is okay and then when I’m finally being treated correctly I self sabotage and blow it all up because I think it’s what I deserve. I want to learn, grow and heal and accept true love and appreciation. I deserve to be valued even when I grew up believing the opposite. Being shown time and time again of what I don’t deserve led me to believe that the behavior is okay even when I knew it wasn’t. It’s time to break that cycle and allow myself to flourish. Here’s to new beginnings.