Man y’all. Has it been a while! The past few months have been long since October 26th. So much has happened that’s it genuinely felt like a whole year has passed. I’ve been on a journey of self healing, self reflection, and self finding. I’ve been digging deep down and doing some soul searching to figure out who I am and who I want to be. It’s been a roller coaster of emotions, emotional abuse from my ex, and lots and lots of tears. I’m not here to shit on him, but only to let out everything on one page. November I met someone unexpectedly and fell deeply hard for him so fast. December, I had to check myself into a psych ward. I had a psychotic break and was at my wits end that I knew it was the right thing for me. Mental health is no joke and the stigma needs to be ended. January I recharged surrounded by family in Florida. When I’m got back I started an Evening Intensive Outpatient Program (EIOP) partial hospitalization. This group ran Monday to Thursday from 6-9pm. It was very intense and long, but informational. February, (thanks to my ex) I lost everything and no longer had that connection I made in November because he blew that up for me by invading my privacy and texting the person. So it all blew up Superbowl Sunday right before my eyes. March, well March followed more verbal and emotional abuse as well as having a pregnancy scare. A whole month without getting my period. I swore I was pregnant. Nope, just under an insane amount of stress. I’m not going to lie I was immensely relieved I wasn’t, but a slight part of me was sad because I’ve always wanted to be a Mom. (Well it mostly comes in waves to do so). Tomorrow’s already April and it still hasn’t come. I am curious as to what this month will bring me. Writing this now, I’m in awe that all this has happened in a short amount of time. I dug deep during this time separated from my husband and realized I too am at fault, and realized my flaws and trauma I need to fix and work through in order to be happy. Throughout all of this divorce stuff I keep trying to remain positive. I started the gym again and have been consistent for 3 weeks now. This is week 4! I’m so proud of myself. My mental health has drastically gotten clearer and I feel great! Here’s to new beginnings, hopefully a new chapter, and just pure bliss and happiness.